To let go...

Why is it so hard to let go of your love??

Or should I ask this: Why should I let go of someone who is already mine?
What does it mean by he is already yours?
You don't own him? Do you? No..
He cant be yours.
But still I miss..
I still love him..
I still cry for him..
I still hope for him..

I wonder can I ever forget him or stop loving him..
I know I cant..
I know I will never be able to..
I know I am trapping myself into something which I should never do..
I have been this road once before..
I know this is going to tear me apart..
But I do not have the courage to say no..
For I know, I do not have the strength to recover from the pain this is going to cause,
maybe I like being in this feeling..
or rather I love him more than myself, to let this hurt me once more..

The Wait...

How would you tell someone, “I love you”? Is it that easy to say??

How would you believe someone loves you the most?? Just by what they say??

I need you to tell me how much you love me. How much you care for me.
Not just by words, I want to feel it.. 

Because I waiting to hear from you, 

a word, a gesture, a feeling, an emotion of being loved by you.

Can’t you see the tears in my eye,

the pain in my heart,

the wait in my head,

the numbness in my body??

Can’t you hear, what my heart says?
Can’t you feel my prayer?

Don’t you feel the same? 

Don't you know how I feel for you??? 

The Feeling...

What do you call the feeling when you wait for the whole day for an SMS??

How do you feel when that someone remembers small details about you…

When he asks you to dance??

When those mushy songs really mean to you

When you smile for no reason

When you are so preoccupied by some thoughts all time

When Red seems the best color

Even a stare of that person turns you on

When pages of the books seems nothing

When you find it hard to concentrate on work

When you don’t hear what your mom’s saying on the dinning table

When you feel full of joy

When you seem to forget which day it is

When time seems to fly

When you can’t explain the shyness on your face

When your heart pounces when he is around

When you stammer, while speaking to him

When you seem to forget why you called him

When you feel the winds singing with you

When you stand in front of mirror and try to perfect yourself J

When you forget where you kept your keys

When every color seems so alive

When you feel jealous when he talks to your friend..

When you know he will never be yours but still he is in your prayer

When you make your plans based of his

When you wait for hours just to get a glimpse of his

When you make up reasons to be around him….

Do you call this Love???